Lost Poetry: Psychiatry and Creativity

As a poet, I think the most valuable thing we can lose in this life is a poem. A poem that comes from our deepest, most authentic self. As a person with lived experience of mental distress and involuntary psychiatric treatment, I know the most powerful of these poems can live and be lost in what some people call ‘madness’.

There are times in which a poem comes to a poet and it’s light and slippery enough that it is easily lost in the bustle of life. Losing this kind of poem is not so much a tragedy. But the poems I’m speaking of are the ones not so easily lost, the ones connected to who we are. When these are lost, a piece of the poet themselves is lost, too. This is the kind of poem that can be destroyed when psychiatry treats a poet, an artist, a musician, without reverence and honor for their creativity and their diversity of mind.

I want to take a moment to honor the artwork, the songs, the paintings and the poems of the mad artists that are lost—deep in a wilderness of psychiatry’s careless disregard for the truth every poet knows—that a poem can be like a bone in one’s body, a part of a person that can sustain their life, make meaning and bring joy and healing.

I lost a poem once, and I mourned it for many years. But, one day my grief became a map, and with it I found my way back to the ghost of it and I brought it back.

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For My Friend & Those With Chronic Illness

When the years of life are piling up and the suffering has found no end, yet.

What god-forsaken thing inside of us keeps us here? Keeps us tied to life? It seems like a kind of ball, a compressed ball of all the unknown things about ourselves. It’s been there all along, whether we were paying attention to it or not. I didn’t even know it was there, keeping me alive, waking me up every morning, no matter what I was faced with. I didn’t even know it was a choice. The unknown just floated there in the center of me, all things swirling around it saying, “I will never give up.” It would just never give up. It was fundamental. It was so fundamental that it was invisible, like the pipes in a house, or the cement foundation under the earth. Life was just alive and living was just what I did. No matter how much it hurt. No matter how much all the voices, the ignorance, and misunderstandings, the harm and “virtuous” malice, the drugs and the gobs of money lost, I was some way of being in it all that said, “I will never give up.”

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